I feel so insecured at times, seriously.
What ya think of this?
Being professional doesnt means to not being unreasonable right?
Someone thinks he's way professional but then came out to be so UNREASONABLE seh!
Iam not suprised!
I remembered clearly you yourself when missing at the point of your major examinations but now, you wound even spare a thought for a girl sitting for her o levels in october. While the rest are in their polythenics courses.
Why aim me? I just dont get you fcuking losers.
Just get this right in your head.
i wasnt the one who asked for it. It just came like that as though ' rezeki ' GEDDIT?!
And you have no right to say this and that towards me behind my back uh!
i knew it that this kind of things, rumors gossip monger would happened one laaa.
so standard laa okey?
I was soo expecting it laaa kay ?
but you being so fcuking unreasonable towards me & being too reasonable to my frend is just BULLSHIT.
Ya know what? Dont even think of being PROFESSIONAL if you don't act like one.
I'am your NUMBER 1 enemy. So what?
i dont even give a fcuking care cause now i realized that you wound change for the better.
Instead you DAMN DAMN DAMN people.
grow up laaa. Maturity level allready? Still waiting for what?
Faggotarsehole!
 

Eh sialah.
Iam feeling claustrophobia in life with ___ .
Tskk.
Chill ah, we're just friends what?!
So whats the bigg deal xia?
Then when you are with her , i dont put a shou-out or whatsover wad !
Fcuk sia !

 Whats ur motive behind all this ?!

GRRRRRRR !

 

 

What did i do wrong to get this in return? 
From sucha caring person last time to a heckcare person now :/ tsktsk.
I felt so betrayed/ bustard/ pissed/ dejected.
I also don't whats his motive behind this.
Iam just irritated for god sake.
After one thing happened, anothr thing wound arose like this.
i aint in good term with one & now with another.
I dont know whats wrong with them! 
Who am i going to talk to or askd questions to when i need help in my studies?
Whowhowho?
Now i now how it felt to be left out.
Let just see how long this would last.
Iam just going to concentrate on my studies after this.
Forget about me or not it's up to you.
Thanks eh friend for the time and memories.
Have a safe walk.
Don't bothr to message me or call me cause my hp is getting on my nerves.
I just leave it off for the time to come.
Anything just call my house number.
Goodbye all.
 

Holidays are here. Wound be updating much cause iam not free -.- 

 "A STRANGER STABS YOU IN THE FRONT; A FRIENDS STABS YOU IN THE BACK; A BOYFRIEND STABS YOU IN YOUR HEART; BUT BESTFRIENDS ONLY POKE YOU WITH STRAWS"
 

* screams out loud * 

All i wished i could do now is WACKED her , SUE her , SLAP her , squeeze her eyes & lastly KILL her, can i ?
PFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
2 word, ANNOYED . PISSED .
She dont hv to react this way right ?
It's so fuckiiiiiiiing iritating girl .
Dont be sucha a BIGGY mouth to spilled those un-reliable facts to others . 
so the stups others believe and so BAD IMPRESSION occurs .
Like WOW , just with the power of MOUTH+SALIVA , HATRED grews .
And WOW , with those sharp ears listening ears , they believe in sucha RUMORS .
i wander , why humans dont want to CROSS-REFER with another source to find
out the truth .
They juz stick to one sources .
oh well , some people .
seriouslyz , to summurized all up i aint hv any fault wit ya
Bt then , wad all those JELINGS for ?
HATRED . BENCI kan .
i've known tat for so long .
so yea , sseriouslz , i dun giv a SHITZXZXZ .
Crucial year tiz year so juz wanna CONCENTRATE , dats all .
Hv fault wit me ,
VOICED OUT PLEASE .
Dont be a SISSY . CHICKEN . LOSER .
So thats ALL .
The weather i sfcuking HOT .
Cuaaca mcm paham ajer my feeling of ANGER-NESS .

BYE SUCKERZXZXZ .


 

 

 

Somethings is just bothring me. I hope this feeling of distrust wound stay long. I would be mad over sucha a small matter. Sometimes, i dont really understand myself. Why i have to make sucha a big fuss over a small tiny winy matter. & that it would lead to a huge argument :X iam the troublemaker here. He's understng but iam not. His friend's is but it's hard for me to trust. Frankly, i dont know whats up with myself now a days. I am just too stress. O levels? Way above my standard. Iam trying my best to juggle between tow things. U & studies. I dont blam you abit for anything. The problem is just me. Sorry for making things way out of hand. I just have to control myself. I seriously need a time out. And break indeed. I want a study leave. I cant cope with my weekends burnt. 8 hours of working, nah i dont have the fuggin shitz to even revise. Thats it, i've made my own choice. 

 

i wound update much here. More updates at my blogger okeh peoples.

 

Sucha a random post today.

My life. As i reflect back yesterday night, i find out that i'am feel with lonely-ness. Haiz. Lemme put it this way. I wish i had a younger sister whome i can talk to every night or day and share my problems with :( Currently, when i'am having those ups and downs, i can talk to my bf or gf. But what happens when they are no longer etch with me? I've prolly no idea how long my realtionship would last with bf. But i really hope that it's everlasting tho. To be frank, i aint share my personal problems with my parents nor brother. Idk why but i aint that close to them :(  Both my parents and brother is always buzy with work work work and bussiness. And same goes to me too. Every morning,  i woke up, the house would be empty. Leaving me & my pet bird behind. Seems like everyone has went out. Sucha a pity. When i come back frm work, like around 11 or late till mdnight, eveyone is asleep. Haizz. What a life. I've hardly had the time to pass the 50bucks to mummy :( I dont even haf the fcuking time to talk to them/ share problems or whatsoever. My brother, iam juz close to him as a bro thats all. We nvr share problems or whatever. Weird i know. Every single night, i would shed tears thinking about how lonely my life could be. If i cant sleep, who should i talk to at night? Nobody. I can only jot down my feelings on this online journal or write it down at my diary. And, iam used to it ready. No use talking to myself tho. How i wish my pet bird can talk huh? There i can talk to him a find company and entertainment there. And sometimes i dont even understand my parents. When i told them i want to go out, they sometimes would letme go. How bout if my bro wants to go out, they would let. Fcuking unfair right?Thy juz undstand my bro but nt me. Haizz , what a life again :(  There i kept wandering again. Is this all due to the close-ness that my parents and bro are? I guess so. There iam sheading tears again. Who's going to accompany me go shopping? buy make-ups? Have a new haircut? who who who ? Ima sucha a lonely girl. How i really really wish to have a younger sister. Dream on nat. That dream wound even come true. Iam juz stuck with thiz lonely life of mine. Maybe it's my fault fo not appreaciating and cherish whome i have now. It's my fault. I'am the one whome don't even know how to bring them close to me. And now i deserve it. Haizz. But i really want to thanked my bf, firdaus for kidnapping my heart and share with me his everlastinglove, care and concern. Iam really blessed to have him in my life. I do share problems with him eventho somtimes he can be sick in the ass. But whatever it is, i relly really loved him. He's the one i can rely, depend on so much. Thanks alot love for being thr for me. ilysm. And on top of that, i would like to thanked my other gf whome has also be there for me in time when in need. Thanks alot Ifah, Moon, Susan & Nazia for lending those listening ears of yours. I do appreciate it lotz and how i hope our relationshp as a friend would be tight as those virgin pussy. haha. Hang on love. And till now i've checked my hp bt to avail. Bf still havent txted me :( Yst night, cnt even have a long chat with him cz he's ton-ing out thr with his friends. How i miz him so much :'(  Bf, txt me soon plz. Iam fuggin worried bout you. Plus iam super sorry bout yst. Iam jz fuggin selfish. Iam jz fuggin demanding towards you. iam so SORYY :( I cnt helpp it but to react that way. See i told ya i realy really need that someone by myside everyday. But i knw you cnt prolly be thr for me everyday. I undstnd. It's ok dear, i'll jz leave with this fuggin lonely life on mine. And yea, i will end this post here. I jz want to wander off to elsewhere. Nobody even cares right? But i wound MIA myself for sure. I'll off my hp if i wish. Pandai2 uh krg cari aku. So long. 

I'll leave this lj dead for a while. So just leave any comment if needed. And yaw , i'll be A-W-A-Y for this week. This week is fugging buzy week for me. Pfft. No off day for me. Grrrr. I'am sick & tired already. Ok Bye.

Ok shags. i'am fuggin new here. Help needed pleaseee :X